Moving forward

I return still as lazy as ever with the intent of writing this post and 'getting to it' I'm not sure what it is that I am expecting to achieve by the end of today or even by the end of the week or month or year for that matter. I know that whatever it is has got to have a big impact on my life the way it is now.

I wanted to give an idea of who I am, what my life is like and why I want to change so bad, ideas swimming around my head of how I can change, what I could change and dreams of what th outcome would be. 

I am 26, a mother of 2 children under 4. Zachary and Eleanor. I am a stay at home Mum and my partner works in catering 4 days a week. Those 4 days a week are my 'mummy' days, juggling housework, children, life in general and trying to remade sane. The other 3 days of the week are our family days and they always go by far too fast. 

I am 5 foot 3, a size 18/20 and very unhappy with the size I am. My weight is a massive issue to me, the health of both myself and my family are also very important, motivation is not my strong point and sitting for half an hour browsing through social media is always easier than leaving 2 scrapping toddlers to go and have a shower!! 

I watch a LOT of YouTube and of course like everyone else have my favourites, it's a natural thing, their lives are portrayed as perfect and I love to sit in my bubble and watch them. But I don't want to be perfect, it's unacheivable and would give a false impression of my life. I have nothing against those people and I don't feel negative towards them but for me this space is about honestly and how life is for most mummies.

Yeah I wear makeup, I own a pair of straighteners (currently used on my partners hair more often than my own ) and I have a somewhat limited sense of fashion, as long as it's covered up I'm happy! 

I often wonder if I was 6 stone lighter would I worry more about wearing makeup, straightening my hair or wearing the latest fashions. I do doubt it, but then again I might take more pride in my appearance. 

So as I finish this post I'm thinking about what lies ahead for me in my quest to change my life, moving forward the biggest change that has to be made is my eating habits, losing 6 stone feels like a million miles away. So I'll start with losing 6lbs. 

If you would be interested in what I eat in a day, recipes, day in the life's let me know. Otherwise I will just go with the flow and see what happens.

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